I never thought that’s what Britney’s song meant! well, i’ve been thinking about what ‘If You Seek Amy” meant for quite some time now. Now I know. Although the song still doesn’t make sense to me but… “Love me, hate me, say what you want about me. But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to F-U-C-K me…” Ooops! she did it again!

Speaking of songs, I’m currently addicted to Kelly’s My Life Would Suck Without You, It’s Over by Jesse McCartney, the catchy Diva and Halo sung amazingly by Beyonce, Lady GaGa’s 2nd single Just Dance, believe it or not Kanye’s Heartless, the song Please Don’t Leave Me by Pink (the video’s scary btw), Thinking Of You by Katy Perry, Ciara’s back with Love Sex and Magic, James Morrison and Nelly Furtado with Broken Strings and finally, Love Story by Taylor Swift… Anyone love those songs too??



Oh my gosh!!! I love Adam Lambert! Definitely betting on him to be in the finale… now it’s a toss up between Allison, Matt, Danny and Megan for the other spot. And can somebody just kick off Anoop already? Damn!

I take back everything I said about Lady GaGa. I love her! She’s so cool and hot! That’s the perfect combination. So addicted to her songs right now.. Poker Face, Just Dance, Love Game, Beautiful Dirty Rich, The Fame, Paparazzi and even Eh Eh which is so not like her but I like it….

I can’t believe Kaba Modern didn’t make it to the finale!!! Aside from Jabbawockeez whom by the way has 3 Filipino members, they’re the sickest group in the show America’s Best Dance Crew, they’re amazing!!!

LGBT: Milk

As I’m typing this, I’m still mad at myself on why I didn’t catch Milk when it was shown here. I know – but it was screened only for a short period of time and on selected cinemas plus the fact that I have a hectic work schedule. No more excuses coz now that I have of course I’m going to talk about it. But first, I’m just glad that the movie based on a true story garnered 2 major awards. And I must say I was struck by the acceptance speeches of Dustin Lance Black after winning for Original Screenplay and Mr. Sean Penn himself on Actor in a Leading Role. They really hit close to home. I got teary-eyed and actually clapped as fervently as the audience to be honest. Back to the story after having heard about this movie, I got curious. I typed ‘Harvey Milk’ on Google and found out several interesting facts about his life, more so now after having watched the movie. I’m going to be re-telling the story so I hope I stay true to it as much as possible.

Harvey Milk is the first openly gay politician elected in public office. But before achieving this he was an ordinary merchant, a businessman who experienced discrimination because of his sexuality. His marvelous journey began in Castro District, San Francisco; Milk was 40 years old and founded a shop, Castro Camera it says. I guess he was fond of taking pictures as depicted in the movie. Later, being ‘out’ that he was living with his partner named Scott, it wasn’t long before gay people started coming to the place and hanging out. And the rest didn’t like it; I mean this was 1972 a time when gay rights were well, inexistent. This was also the time when he met the people who will be joining him on his political career such as Jim Rivaldo, Dick Pabich, Danny Nicoletta, Cleve Jones and more. As the crowd started growing Milk became well-known and people were outraged by his group. Milk showing the first signs of his influence on people started encouraging his ‘crowd’ to patronize only the shops that treat them fairly causing the other shops to shut down. Although Castro became sort of a sanctuary to them, it still wasn’t safe. During 1973, the suppression and violence got worse that they have to wear whistles around their neck to call for help when needed. This triggered him to want to do something about it; he wanted a change. And just like that although knowing the obstacles he has to overcome, he ran for San Francisco City Supervisor to serve not only the gay community but everyone, as his campaign slogan went: “Milk has something for everybody.” He didn’t win though sadly so as in 1975 and 1976 when he tried again. And by that that time it wasn’t getting any better with the presence of a religious group led by a woman named Anita Bryant who proposed to repeal the law protecting the human rights of gay people. Did you know that she said that giving these rights to homosexuals is like giving them to prostitutes, thieves and the like? I couldn’t believe what I’m hearing. What’s more unbelievable is people like her exist. Because it wasn’t like we were fighting for supremacy, we were only fighting for equality. And it’s very hard for me to understand so I’m questioning: “Was that too much to ask?” The sad thing was that the yes vote to repeal the ordinance won. But it wasn’t over; the gay protests back lashed and Milk strived even harder until in 1977 running for the fourth time, he was finally elected in public office. With the help of a new campaign manager, Anne Kronenberg, a lesbian and even running against another gay candidate, Rick Stokes. In 1978 he took oath to office but is immediately faced with problems as State Senator John Briggs filed a state-wide petition in California to fire gay teachers and anyone who supports them, this evolved and tuned into what was called the Proposition 6 basically repealing the law protecting the civil rights of homosexuality. Another gay City Supervisor named Dan White is also against Milk’s cause quite ironically. He never supported the gay movements in fact he didn’t care at all and it’s a shame. But these didn’t stop Milk to sponsor the passing of the San Francisco Gay Rights Ordinance with the surprising support of the City Mayor George Moscone. Meanwhile, Milk’s personal life was shaken after his new partner Jack (he broke up with Scott during his fourth campaign) committed suicide. As the voting for Prop 6 nears, the Gay Freedom Day Parade was held on June 25th, 1978 led of course by Milk himself amidst the death threats. I liked what he said on his “Hope Speech” that it is written on the declaration of independence that: “All men are created equal and endowed with certain inalienable rights.” And that no John Briggs or Anita Bryant or anyone else for that matter can erase those words no matter how hard they try. Even in the debate scenes, I was infuriated by Briggs’ comments and reasoning that these gay perverts (teachers) must be removed because they are encouraging their students to be like them. And because child molestation cannot be prevented, we can at least lessen the odds by removing the homosexuals and keeping the heterosexuals. I hate it even more when he uses the name of God as defense. All those statements are so wrong in many levels. Actually, nothing good came out of those words. Uugghh… I’m actually really speechless by that point. But a miracle happened on November 7th, 1978 when the vote for NO to Prop 6 won. And it was pretty amazing. But due to a sudden twist of fate we did lose. On November 27th, 1978, White, not taking the turn out of the events very well and who has been against gay democracy and Milk the whole time, after being turned down shortly after resigning from the Board and deciding to come back, turned psycho and shot dead City Mayor George Moscone and City Supervisor Harvey Milk in the City Hall. Milk was shot 6 times and 3 at close range. That night, over 30,000 people marched from Castro to the City Hall to honor both men. And what really, really saddens me about all of this was the fact that White was acquitted of the murder charges and was only charged with voluntary manslaughter (the minimum charge). This basically means that although he broke the law he cannot be held liable due to diminished capacity which according to his lawyers was caused by his diet of junk food creating a chemical imbalance in his brain. This was labeled by the press as the Twinkie Defense. After the verdict, the so-called ‘White Night Riots’ exploded which marked the most violent uprising in the history of gay movement. What’s really interesting is that before he died, on November 18th he made a recording that tells about his life and he began it with: “this should only be played in the event of my death by assassination.”

I seriously recommend you to watch the movie most especially to people like me. It opens your eyes and it makes you think. After everything said, I’m just really grateful that someone like Harvey Milk came along and made it easier for us; who fought for our freedom, taught us to fight and most importantly gave us hope. Thank God for Milk. ‘Milk’ portrayed by Sean Penn and directed by Gus Van Sant with actors James Franco, Emile Hirsch, Josh Brolin, Alison Pill, Lucas Grabeel and many more.



“I ask this, that if there be an assassination I would want five, ten, a hundred, a thousand to rise. If a bullet should enter my brain let it destroy every closet door. I ask for the movement to continue because it’s not about personal gain, and it’s not about ego, and it’s not about power, it’s about the “us’s” out there. Not just the gays but the blacks, and the asians, and the seniors and the disabled, the us’s. Without hope the us’s give up. And I know you can’t live on hope alone but without hope life is not worth living. So you, and you, and you, you gotta give them hope… you gotta give them hope.” – Harvey Milk

Choice Hottie for March: Robert Pattinson

Robert Pattinson = Edward Cullen less the fangs of course. But even so, I don’t think any of us would mind. I don’t think I even have to elaborate on this one. Just look at his face and you’ll see someone mysterious, charming, gorgeous and breathtaking. Sure he has some weird-looking photos scattered throughout the net but you can’t deny his charisma. He’s not your typical pretty face alright but he’s a keeper. Don’t you just love him? Especially on those “worried poses”, don’t it make you just want to ease him and make it all right? Okay I’ll stop now. 😉  Enjoy!

The unexpected trip to my father’s hometown.

Actually, it was more like a business trip but still it was such a coincidence that my out-of-town engagement last March 2 to 13, the farthest I had for that matter (maybe even last) was in Iligan, Lanao Del Norte where my father grew up. It came out of nowhere, my forecast for the remaining weeks of the audit busy season was already full. And then for some reason, it all changed and the next thing I knew I have a client in Iligan for the next two weeks. My first reaction was like – “where the hell is that?” But I knew at the back of my head that it’s where my dad came from so I immediately texted him. I thought he was nonchalant about it because he didn’t reply until he told me the next day that everyone was waiting for me there. Everyone??? Well, after having given him the name of my client, my relatives knew where it was and they were just close to the vicinity. Ya you read it right, relatives… Relatives I never knew nor met! Of course my dad told me about some distant childhood memory about them I can’t remember. I have to admit I was a little indifferent about meeting them. But there’s just another teensy weensy problem, nope that’s not the last of the setbacks of this almost perfect engagement. It’s not actually a big deal, but it’s just that there are two of us assigned to this client. The other guy was from another department. And once again, let’s just say we’re not exactly close. Okay, so I was thinking I’m going to be working with and even sharing a room with a complete stranger. I don’t know maybe I am a little touchy about it but I’m just not comfortable with the thought. I learned later that he was a batchmate from a different group in the office. I did actually remember how he looked and that’s about it although I have a feeling based on our first meeting that he didn’t have the slightest idea about me. 🙂 And what made it more awkward was the fact that we didn’t get to meet before the engagement began; I wasn’t able to because of the pile of work I was under. I just couldn’t afford a free time. So we met on the airport and there I was meeting an officemate whom I have an image in my mind but not so much sure. Fortunately, it is him. And in fairness, we got along quite nicely. I think I can pretty much owe it to him, he was the one more, how do I put this, friendly? I really tend to be shy on situations like this. So that went down well.

Now back to my other problem. My dad convinced me that they are so eager to meet me and they were! They kept on contacting me the day I arrived and even offered to fetch me. The first meeting was just holy awkward! With a very impersonal handshake and not to mention the inkling in me that says “Am I actually with the right persons?” Haha… Talk about the mother of all awkwardness! 😀 I was in a place foreign to me what else could I think? I swear I don’t have any info to be of reference heck I don’t even know how they look! Not even a picture to measure any resemblance. But anyways, it was pretty easy to get along with them except for the language barrier, everything was fine. They were really, really nice and hospitable. My gosh I got so guilty for even thinking of not meeting them. But I’m glad I did. It was a very interesting experience, I just wish I knew how to speak Bisaya so I can get to know them even more. We had a couple of get-togethers and even more meeting of relatives like my Aunt Letty, Ate Isang, Ate Susan, Ate Mayang and dozens of my cousins whose names I can’t remember, sorry! I even found out that I already have a grandchild to one of my cousins. They even took me and my officemates to Ma. Christina Falls also famously referred to as the ‘twin falls’, President Gloria Macapagal – Arroyo’s ancestral home and the well-known Timuga Beach with its cold spring. Wow, that was really a lot to take in for the span of two weeks but I just want to thank my Kuya Paul and Sonny for making me feel as comfortable as possible, I did felt like I had a home away from home. It was my first time being in Mindanao so it really helped, it was the farthest place I’ve ever been. I really appreciate what they’ve done for me and I wish I could go back there and maybe by then it’s not for work anymore. 🙂 Here are some pics…